... I'm calling you out.
You live in a crazy world. You're never okay. There's alway something that's going wrong but the weird thing is that it's rarely you're fault. You're an upbeat kid when you're with your friends but I know that when you're alone all you can think about is the FACT that you're alone.
I thought I was one of the few to understand what's going on in that head of yours and for a while there I think I did pretty well. You always looked for what was best for me. You never told me what I wanted to hear- just what I needed to hear.
I never got to see you as much as I wanted to. You can hold it against me as much as you want- I don't care. Whatever my reasoning was for each time we planned was never a lie. I never lied to you. Being down the street from you that night I really wish I could have spent time with you. Circumstances werent in my favor and I dont know how many times I apologized-not that any of them seemed to matter.
When you get off that high horse of yours you'll see that just because you feel like you were wronged, doesn't mean you're not wrong at all. You're all one huh? No one there to help you out more so than a pat on the back and a "It'll all be okay, soon".... Hm. You weren't even a back up in my life- you're right. You were my life line. I went to you with everything because I trusted you but hey! Life is all about the lessons you learned and I guess that's one I found out the hard way.
Keep your "oohs" and "ahhs" to yourself. Don't act suprised. I don't miss you. Your childish insecurities are holding you down from having all the things you want. I've grown since you. I've learned how to be a stronger more independent person. I keep this cute little pink book with all my rantings that use to go to you this way in a form of lyrical therapy. I'm over it Kev.
You want happiness stop letting it get away from you. It wasn't with me. You want a friend then start being one to yourself. You have no idea whats going on in that head of yours so how do you expect anyone else to? You're tired of being alone? Love yourself so someone else can. You're all closed up as open and willing as you may think you are- you're not ready. I don't have much else to say other than lifes not fair. Don't expect any favors and who know's.. You may be suprised with what comes at you.
"There was a time when I came to your side
It was 3am and you were begging me to die
Another year was all it took for you to forget the best friend
that always carried you
So are you still saying im not when I already am
And why are you still saying we wont when we already are
Ain’t it a shame to be so young and insane?
Ain’t it a shame to be so young and insane?"
